Yes, that is undoubtedly a mullet. What I see is not one of those horrible haircuts from the early 1990’s, but those silly jumping fish I grew up watching in amusement while at the lake or the river. Mullets randomly pop out of the water just for the fun of it I suppose. I should have consulted with my marine biologist friend, Amanda, before typing this post, but alas I did not. So, we will have to rely on my assumptions about the mysterious mullets. The mullet I see is in my imagination. The mullet in my imagination is me. They randomly pop out of the water, occasionally ending up stuck out of the water and flopping around trying to get back to the safety of the water.
Two weekends ago I spent some much needed time with some ladies who constantly encourage me, Mrs. Dottie Lewis and Mrs. Barbara Sandiford. The more time I spent with these ladies, the more my world seemed to center itself again. The world, my world, came more clearly into focus than I had seen it in seven months! With such clarity I saw that I have been one of those silly mullets over the last few months. I saw myself as the fish that popped out of the water, desperately flopping around trying to find the water again. My life has seemed completely out of control. Where is the blasted stream?! Where is my direction?! Both have been out of reach and certainly out of focus. This was just the beginning of a weekend of revelations.
I experienced one of those life-defining moments of epiphany during a conversation with my dear mentor, Barbara. I realized that I could no longer identify my dreams. WOW! This was a startling realization. It was somewhat humiliating to admit to myself. My dreams have always been something that oddly defined my drive for life, so I was startled by the revelation that I no longer had any. I quickly decided it was time to sit down, seek the Father’s heart, and determine what dreams He has been waiting to share with me.
I’ve started a new list of dreams! Some of them scare me to even day dream about, while others cause me to stare at them with a familiar glint of determination in my eye. I know I can do it!
Everything is not better overnight. There are still circumstances that are extremely challenging to endure right now, but I am reminded this is just a season of my life. This little mullet is finally back in the water, and enjoying the security of the stream.
